Sisterhood of motherhood

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Te felicito por no seguir la ridícula moda de poner al bebé delante, lo que te incapacita para hacer la mínima cosa. Esta es la mejor forma, la forma ancestral, para que el bebé se sienta libre y como un segundo y continuo testigo de que vivir es actuar. Una madre con su hijo a la espalda es una madre dinámica. Una madre con su bebé a la espalda es un ser anulado, una mujer obnubilada por su propia maternidad. Tengo cincuenta años y acarreé a mis bebés a la espalda y sobretodo no dejé de hacer las cosas que tenía que hacer en casa con la disculpa de que tenía al bebé al brazo. En un a época en que ya nadie llevaba a sus hijos en contacto con su cuerpo me tomaban un poco de chiflada. Sin embargo, el resultado ha sido muy bueno. Tengo un hijo de 29 y una hija de 27, muy distintos los dos; pero si algo tienen en común es su energía. Los dos son sociables , dinámicos y trabajadores.
 
Se pone de moda otra vez acarrear a los infantes, y el contacto cuerpo a cuerpo con el bebé. Pero en algo tenemos que diferenciarnos las sociedades modernas y tecnológicas de las supuestamente atrasadas.

A lo visto parece que está prohibido hacer otra cosa que no sea adorar al pequeñajo mientras acarreas a tu hijo por delante. ¿Quién friega entonces los platos y tiende la ropa? o ¿coje las bolsas de la compra?

Toda la vida y en todas las sociedades, las madres comunes han seguido trabajando mientras llevaban a sus hijos con ellas. Ahora cualquier individua tomada al azar entre esta nueva ornada de madres, en una sociedad envejecida en la que escasean los niños, parece como ya he dicho antes, obnubilada por su propia maternidad.
Aparece entonces la madre protagonista y egocéntrica, más de lo que lo hayan podido ser otras madres en la historia. Conocemos incluso los tristes ejemplos de LA NUEVA MADRE EMPERATRIZ , la que pretende tiranizar a toda la familia, abuelas, abuelos, hermanos, cuñadas, y todo tonto que se preste, e imponer sus propias normas, con el cuento de que ellas son madres.

   Y, a toda esta nueva generación, la de los selfies con niñita incluida la denominaría como La Nueva Generación De Madres Subidas Con Bebé e Hijos Futuras Promesas a Seres Repelentes.

   Ni que el mundo acabara de empezar con ellas. Pobres, pobres criaturas....

Driving drowsy....Chapter four.

   The normal thing to happen was having an accident, and that´s what we had: an unavoidable accident. And considering that we were under such many stupid circumstances, I am still wondering what was the variable which made us survive the crash. Was that a miracle? 
  

   The car slid suddenly out the road and we fell into void just in one second. I did not realized what had happen. Luis question was: "Where´s the bridge?". I did even shout till another second later when, out of a clear sky, I noticed that water was entering the car. Then I yelled in panic, and I called my mother. I just started calling my mother out, absolutely terrified, trying to get out of there, pushing the stuck doors, trembling in terror, fingering  on the jammed handles. And the water kept coming in, filling the inside of the car, as it was a bathtub or something worse as a sunk car on the bottom of a river somewhere.

    _ Are you alive?! Are you alive?_ I asked out to my co-travellers._ Then they whispered_ We´re fine._ It doesn´t matter any more!_ I told them back._  We´re going to die! No! I didn´t want to die!_ I cried, and kept crying_ I can´t open the doors! Joachim! I can´t!

   Then I saw Joachim passing above Luis. His side door was stuck too. He tried to open that door, the driver side door. We were wheels up. Any of the windscreens had been broken. Then he got it! He hit the door, and opening it a cold draft aired into the car.

   The dog got out, and I followed the dog. I could pass behind the driver sit and reach the exit. Joachim was not outside. Luis was caught. The steering wheel against his breastbone kept him against the backrest. 

   As soon as I was out I stood up on the big flat river stones settled down in the middle of the riverbed and I looked at the stream running down both sides and above them, soaking my shoes . I am a good swimmer; but I am not very sure if I would have been able to saved my life just swimming wrapped in a long black skirt overalls made of corduroy, swimming down and against the freezing stream. If we had fallen into a deep river pool we three would have drowned. Thanks goodness , we were not in the bottom. Then I Looked up. I saw the moon glittering through the passing gray clouds. Then I looked back to the car. And I saw poor Luis trapped. The water was reaching his waist. Then I saw Joachim getting out of the car. I could see him very clearly because of his white shirt and his white trousers. He was glowing under the moonlight as a lost glum angel, pacing up and down, wandering among the stones, as he was looking for something. I noticed a weird quirky behaviour in him.

_ What are you doing?_ I asked him.

_ I need a stone to break the steer wheel. We had to break him free from that trap.

   Then he kneed down and took a medium-size stone.

_ That´s impossible. We have to climb the ravine up instead. We have to look for help. We need to go out of here._ I said. He did not listen to me. I saw Luis. He was conscious but likely to be seriously injured. His brown black face was fading. I had got to go. The dog was sniffing around the water to find a safe path to cross out the stream. I followed it so that not to fall into a river pool.

   When I reached the river side I started to climb up clutching bushes and blackberries. I remember that despite the undergrowth prickles and thorns my fingers did not hurt because they were frozen and insensitive.  

   I had to climb the steep rocky wall, a face cliff which holded ice and snow,and at least forty metres up to get out of there. 
   Finally, when I reached the end, and I felt safe, I looked back. Down was pitch dark. I could just listen to the sound of water running peacefully. Then I called out Joachim. No one answered.   

  

DRIVING DROWSY- Passing by Riaño before It was destroyed.

   Look at this video. This place was known as the Spanish Switzerland once. I was reborn in this sacred place that time, when Riaño neighbours had already started their fight for saving their homes and land. President Felipe González was empowered those years to have stopped such a environmental devastation. He did not. He and his rich friends were too much interested in the real estate speculation. 

CHAPTER III

      The dog was sit down on my feet warming my legs.I did not want to cast a gloom over us. I only cast the last look through the door glass while laying absolutely hopeless my body back along the seats. Then I saw like a kind of huge very tall ghosts emerging outside. Dozens of clear grey slender spectres stretching their threatening arms around an old little defenseless car and our poor lives inside with.

   _ What´s that?_ I exclaimed in terror pointing to the phantoms.
   _ Do you mean that?_ It was Joachim answering._ Look at that Luis. Castile and Lion on their knees bow to Asturias summits, the Spain´s cradle.
   So complicated was his answer, just to mean that those phantasmagorical visions were The Peaks of Europe, the most famous mountain chain of the North of Spain, that I think it was so long explanations of him, or perhaps the joints smoke making the air stuffy, and surprisingly the place cosy, what made me fell half asleep. Imagine that majestic far sight in the death of the night. The only thing that was possible to see was the faint snow laid on the hills slopes. If I had made Luis to stop to get out of the car, wherever we were, where could I have gone to shelter on my own?

DRIVING DROWSY. Second part.

CHAPTER TWO

   I think I fell into a light sleep. I wish I slept deeply any time.
They were talking all the way, I was laid down quiet behind. I recall a faithful dog dozing between the two seat ranks. It was Luis´s dog, Joachim´s Argentinian friend, a medium-sized, light red-haired dog, I felt relieved because of this unexpected guardian,
   Then I listened to Joachim announcing that we were passing by Leon. I had to imagine its famous cathedral. When opening my eyes I sat up a little to stretched my neck out to look up through the windows, at both sides. I could not see any thing. It was pitch dark.

   Joachim was very talkative. And Luis took for granted that the interesting conversation would help to keep him awake and fresh.

   Then he asked Joakim to roll a joint to him. It was later than two in the morning. I sat up forward to look at him in amazement. I noticed then that his eyes were coming red in the middle of his brown-green face and that its skin was likely to be plenty of tattoos because that area of skin he had uncovered was black and blue. Then I realized that I should not have never trusted a single man of more than thirty-two who was a mix between a rastafarian and a yogi. A man who had dared pop up once, years before that moment, out of the sea, wearing a red brazilian tanga before my very eyes. Such a nasty loincloth, in a european beach, had never been seen before, by me and any of my eyes with in any case.  
   Now is time to me to say the truth. I must be honest. It had been me who introduced Luis to Joachim. Although I had never smoked weed in my life I must be naturally bound for disgrace and  misery any way. I have to confess I knew him.  He was the kind of man that had traveled around the world, with no other tool than a wide white grin, from India to new Zealand, from Brazil to California, from Russia to Iraq, speaking English, just three words. ¨You´re my brother.¨ Just all or very little more maybe. He had worked as a cowboy in Brazil and California. Then he won enough money to travel through India. There, in Goa he had been a beggar, The following year he had learned the pure tattoos technique from Maoris in Northland. Luis had survived poverty, famine, illness, even bad companions, just by casting this spell on people ¨peace brother¨. But despite being in awe of him I was with eyes wide open too. And in that moment I remember wondering if he would be going to, be able too, to survive the eventual car accident we three were about to suffer.

 _ May I inquire both of you what money did you paid for that shit with? _ I said._ Didn´t you said that we had no money left to change the back wheel tyres too?_ I asked.
_ Don´t worry. Be happy._ That was Luis answer.
   He had that sense of music and life together. He had learned to speak English by learning some rastafarian songs by heart.

   Then Joachim asked me not to disturb them with bad energies while starting to roll another joint, this time for him to smoke.

Very, very interesting and out-of-the wall.

DRIVING DROWSY

Chapter one


      Shoot that question to Mercedes. Why did she decide that Joachim was the man of her life, the chosen one? I Did otherwise. I would not have chosen such a man in my life. However, he might have chosen me. I did not even know  Mercedes. Between she and I, why did he choose me? Did he want to ruin my life?
   I have many questions, myself. But, to be honest, it was love at first sight. I remember thinking that I had not seen him before. He was twenty-five years old, I was twenty-one.  He was drop-dead gorgeous. And I was...Well, I think I was pretty. Anyway, among my worries and priorities that has never been one. But he was good-looking, so handsome that none of my friends and mainly, neither of my sisters, could understand why Joachim and I, we were together.
   _ You don´t match at all._ That is what I was said on and on, and when I put the question ´Why?´
 the answer was as silly as that he was much more handsome and cool than I was, and I am.

   Although I had had apprehensions the very moment we met, maybe that stupid reason, that I did not seem as cool as him, was what made me take the plunge and marry him.

  Once that we were married to each other,  he introduced me to Mercedes and I found out that she had been his girlfriend for almost seven years.

  Then he told me more. When he had met Mercedes he was already a divorced man.
How could have imagined such a man in my life?

   I had never been very good at maths. But I remember doing my sums and I said to myself that if he was 25 at that moment that meant that he had been 19 when he met Mercedes and both went to live together. And that if he had been married before for two years to another woman ( that was Oleina) that meant that he had got married when he was merely seventeen!

   When I discovered my husband past life it was too late. He lived so quickly that the day after having met Mercedes for the  first time, I knew I was pregnant.

   Then he started to borrow money from Mercedes. We had already wasted all my money, that money I had earned selling my paintings during the summer. But meanwhile I was preparing another exhibition, we had run out of money. He was jobless. Why was he not seeking a job ? That was my wonder.

  Then we decided to go to Asturias from Madrid. He wanted to introduce me to his family.
   It was a kind of relief to hear that he had an old cabin there, in Asturias, and a little field to grow vegetables...Why not?  I remember saying to myself that we could perfectly scrape together enough money to live, by returning to a cheeper lifestyle in the countryside. I would keep on painting and he would work as a farmer. But, all our planes were no more than a sort of short bucolic dream, so brief it was.


   It was then the last week of november. It was very cold in Madrid. We got a pre owned car, not a luxury one, in fact it was quite old. I did not trust that such a rosty bargain could go very far away. By then, I had never had a car in my life, neither now. Any way, Joachim could not drive, neither did I. But we were quite lucky when the friend who Joachim had bought the car from,  offered to carry us to Asturias. Then, as soon as we were setting off, we had to stop in a petrol station, in the pass of Navacerrada, to get the car wheel tyres changed. Besides, we had no a single spare wheel in the boot to replace. We had to buy it. Then we could afford buying a new pair of front wheel tyres but the back ones. On the pass of Navacerrada snow was in the air. I remember thinking that we should have taken a train.

   I also remember saying to myself that I should have taken, too, notice of my apprehensions four months before that moment. But, on the other hand, the wind was blowing ice-cold so, unless I had chosen going frost to die, I got in the car and laid on the back seats. I felt so tired.